Bye, bye teen years; Hello Twenties.

Yesterday was my twentieth birthday! It started off with me having to have class which was incredibly lame, ha, but not to bad, a girl in my Astronomy class actually has the same birthday as me, so we had a mini-celebration ha, she is a year younger though. After class I got dressed and ready and headed to Martinsville to Tonisha's house to meet up with my parents before we went out to Indy! Or "Naptown" as some might call it, hah.

On my way to Martinsville though, I had a crazy experience. I was driving on I-69 and a man on a CrotchRocket was following me REALLY closely, so I got over in the other lane so he could pass me, when I did he got behind me though, it was really windy so I assumed he was just trying to get some blockage from the wind, I kept an eye on my rearview mirror though, because it made me nervous having him so close, as I was watching I saw him began to wobble and veer to the left side of the road, he went flying off his bike, his bike went in the air landed on him, and his helmet went flying off, I pulled my jeep over on the side of the road, but he was down in a ditch where I couldn't get to him, and I was on the side of I-69 which is super busy, so I called 911 and an ambulance came and got him, I have no idea what happen to that man, I've just been praying he's okay!

After that chaos, I made it to Tonisha's and Avery was there waiting for my arrival! Ha, As soon as I got there he jumped on me and gave me a big hug! He had painted me a Happy Birthday picture, and was so eager for me to open my gifts! I love kids and their excitement!! My parents came shortly after, and we headed to Indy! We ate at Harry & Izzy's it was soo awesome! I had shrimp cocktail for an appetizer, lobster and filet as my meal, and cheesecake with carmel as my dessert! I ate soo much, then the ladies did a little shopping, & I got my Easter dress! Soo cute! Can NOT wait to be home for Easter!! Once we got back to the Meeks' house my mom had me a Strawberry Ice cream cake waiting, so I ate even MORE! HA we stayed up late, talking! It was great I LOVE spending time with my family! & Tonisha, Tammy, & Robbie (WHO ARE FAMILY anyways) =) It was such a great birthday!! :) Thank you Lord for blessing me in so many ways!

OHH Yeahhh , quote of the night

Robbie: Where are my presents?

Avery: You don't have any!!

Robbie: Why not!

Avery: (pounders) Because it's not all about you!!

Robbie: Who's it all about then!

Avery: It's all about God!

just 4 years old and already so smart!

So the past couple days have been pretty exciting! :) Starting off Friday night Joshua and I drove to Purdue and went to the Kid Cudi concert! It was soo amazing, Kid Cudi is such a talented artist! He sang for us a cappella a song he just wrote, it was so great! ( "I just wanted to write a song for the ladies in the club, a song that didn't make them want to dance" hah) I would really like to see him again! :) When I say Kid you say Cudi! lol

Then last night I drove up to IWU and met up with my friend Emily Bair, and met a few of her friends! It was so great! Just getting to spend time and be surrounded by Christians is truly amazing, sitting with them and just discussing the Lord is so great! We went to Steak and Shake pretty late to celebrate my birthday and a guy name Josh's birthday! :) then we all went to Wal-mart and just goofed off and played some random games! lol, after that we rented the movie "The Box" & watched it on Amy's laptop, to bad it was a terrible choice and made absolutely no sense to anyone, I really can't say much, because I was falling asleep the last 2o minutes! Then this morning we went to Exit 59, it was a great service but the mad did ramble on about a few comparison stories a little to long! After that we went back to IWU got some lunch, and I ran into Abby, it was so great talking to her! It is just so amazing to have so many caring people around! I met some really great people up there! & hope to stay in contact with them all! :) :)

Tomorrow is my 20th Birthday!! I'm meeting my mom in Martinsville early in the day tomorrow and we are gonna hang out with Tonisha until Tammy gets off work then we are heading to Indy to eat at Harry & Izzy's for my birthday! Can't wait! :)

Intergalactic You & Me.

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Lady of Reckless Abandonment for Jesus! :)

Today has been a good day! I met up with Tonisha in Indy and did a little shopping! My Birthday is Monday and I will be back in Indy to eat at Harry & Izzy's with my Momma, Tonisha, and her mom Tammy! :) So excited! Also the Kid Cudi concert is tomorrow night, can not wait! I'm so excited!!

I picked up a new book and I've been reading it, it is so inspirational! It is all about just living your life for God, because he is the only thing in that can truly make you happy! It is so amazing, and true. A couple great quotes from the book that I've highlighted are below :

"A woman is not born a woman. Nor does she become a one when she marries a man, bears a child and does their dirty linen, not even when she joins a women's liberation movement. A woman becomes a woman when she becomes what God wants her to be."

This is just so amazing, and it has never been put into these words to me before, but it just makes such perfect sense! How are you ever going to be happy, and be able to make others happy if you are not doing what God wants of you!

"He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm" (Proverbs 13:20)

Also the lead up to this really caught my attention, it talks about how as a Christian if you really want to be Christlike a lot of times you have to separate yourself from your friends that are doing things that are not what Christians should do, especially if what they do influences you to sin, and turn away from what you know is right, because this can affect your relationship with the Lord, and instead of you having a positive influence on them, they are tearing you down, and harming your relationship with Christ!

Well these are just a couple and I'm sure there will be many more to come, but I'm gonna get back to reading! :)

God Loves you more than he Does.

Today was such an amazing day, it started off pretty rough and had some moments, but overall God's grace showed through everything! :) To startoff the day I was just pretty upset to say the least on my way into work, I even contemplated asking them for the day off because I just didn't think I could be a "happy server", but I decided I should stay and I am so glad I did, because my first table who sat down were two older men, and they really brightened my day, to start off with when I brought them their food they said, "we are going to pray, do you mind if we pray for you?" This was so amazing to me that two strangers would offer to pray for ME, and I said yes and thanked them, and then they asked if there was anything particular that they could pray for, and I gave them a brief explanation without getting into too much detail, and they prayed for me. :) Shortly after that I was carrying a large tray full of food, and someone ran into me, and I dropped the whole tray and broke about six plates, I was on the verge of tears, & one of the men jokingly said to me, well I guess we should have prayed for you to have good hands, and made me laugh instead of cry, then this same man left me a VERY generous tip. A man I've never met before in my life and may never see again, has really impacted my life and just made me realize God's blessings come when you really do need them!

After that my friend Layne texted to me and wanted to meet up to just hang out and drink coffee, so I went to meet her at the Student Center, on my way there a very interesting thing happened to me, I was walking down Riverside and a car drove by me and threw a Taco Bell cup full of some drink at me, luckily it just barely hit my leg, and nothing got on me, I didn't think

much of it, just thought it was immature college kids, then about 5 minutes later still as I was walking to the SC, the same car drove by and threw a bottle of water at me! I still have no idea who this was, and really confused on the matter because, basically everyone I am friends with up here is from my house church and I know none of them would randomly throw things at me, and I haven't even really met to many other people, and for sure not met anyone and had any conflicts, but apparently I have someone who likes to follow me in a car and throw things at me. So strange! Usually this would probably have really upset me, but instead of getting angry I just laughed, and prayed that God would show those people his way, and help them know him and grow up. After I finally made it to the SC, I met up with Layne, and we got Starbucks and just talked for a couple hours, it was so great we talked a lot about just things in life, but we talked for a majority of the time about our relationship with God, and just how much our life has changed by getting to be friends with people who love the Lord, it was so amazing, and just made me feel great! Layne is such and amazing person and I'm so glad that God lead us to each other, and I hope we become great friends!

Then after that we usually have House Church on Wednesday nights, but most people couldn't make it, including the people who usually lead it, so Kristen and I decided to have our own Bible Study together, which was great! I picked her up from her dorm, we had dinner at Woodworth, then came back to my dorm, and read Psalms 77, and talked about it, and it just lead into such deep discussion about our relationship with Christ, and how to talk to other people, and introduce them to the Lord if they do not know him. It's just so refreshing to have such a good friend that has the same beliefs as I do, and that can just openly talk to me, and I can talk to her, and know that no matter what I say it's fine! I have truly been blessed!

You're in my Prayers, you're in my Nightmares

You know the time in the morning, right when you wake up, but you're not quite awake yet? When you're still in that daze, reality hasn't hit you yet. Everything is perfect, everything is in it's place. Then you wake up & that small moment of perfection is gone. You wake up and have to face the day, and reality for that matter. Everything that you thought was just an awful nightmare is your life. I thought this would be for the best, I know I'm fine without you, I don't Need you, that doesn't mean I don't want you.. I'm sorry I'm stupid, I'm sorry I talk before thinking, I'm sorry I hurt you. I will always love you.

Sometimes things have to fall apart, so they can be put back together.

So I've decided I am stuck in this in between age, I'm about to

turn 20 in less than a week. So I am no longer a teenager, but I

still am a "young adult" which usually is not taken that seriously.

It's got me thinking, how am I supposed to act? Sometimes I feel

like I act to old for my age. That I don't fit in with the people who

are my age, I don't drink or "party" and I never thought that was

that big of a deal until I moved away for college, and apparently

that decision in my life has alienated me from a lot of people my

age. I am not willing to conform to what other people want of me,

so sometimes I have to suffer feeling alone to stand by my decisions,

and my faith. I know I will always have God walking by my side even

if there is no one else. He is all I need, and he will comfort me in my

worst times. Even when I feel at my worst he will carry me through.

He is comforting me right now, and I just have to remember I have

Him to lean on. No matter what the outcome is of my current

situation, He will give me what i need to get through all of this.