Junior Year has begun.

I have not wrote in here in a while, and had some time so I thought I would.

I am back up at Ball State and absolutely loving it, I have already made great friends, and getting to see the people I met last semester is great as well! Also being involved in The Revolution is great! :) This year I am also volunteering in the Pre-school at the First Presbyterian Church next to campus. I am so excited to be working with the little kids it will be so fun, and a great experience. I have not been able to see Joshua as much as i'd like considering how busy my schedule is and he has soccer right now as well, but I am just thankful for the time I do get to spend with him. I have been so blessed having him in my life, I could not ask for anyone better. :)

4th of July :)

This weekend was a lot of fun! :) Joshua and I headed down Friday to the lake with my parents! We had a great time with everyone down there, going out on the new boat and seeing the fireworks two nights in a row! & also jumping off the top of the boat after the fireworks the second night! haha, Joshua started that, and it just kinda went on from there by the end atleast 8 or 9 people had jumped off the boat and my MOM being one of them! LOL, even though she kind of ended up slipping off instead of jumping! Needless to say it was not the most graceful thing ever! :) I love my parents, and Joshua, also mY "Lake Family" Thank you for making this weekend fun like always! :)


After getting back from the Lake Joshua and I stopped and got some little fireworks for Jack, like the snakes and smoke bombs. Then we met up with his parents and ate at Jalisco's and then went to Rolling Hills to go swimming. After that we watched some of the office, and then had dinner and watched The Book of Eli with his parents! Great time. Daniel and Carl ended up coming over and we went to see Daniel's new apartment! :) Pretty exciting for him to get his own place! :) - - Then Josh and I headed back to Carl's to just sit and hang out with him a little bit for the night, and we talked to Kim :) She is such a sweet lady! :) After that Joshua and I just went back and ended of the night watching some CRAZY series tv show ha.


Overall this was a great 4th of July weekend.

Good Day?

HIGHLIGHTS OF YESTERDAY:

-Dropped my iphone4
-Got blood on my Louis Vuitton purse
-Wrecked my Mom's car.

Hmm probably the best day of my life, i'd say.

So i was wrong..

How could I have misjudge this situation so greatly,how could I have been so wrong?
Was it always like this all along? Have I just been to blind to see what is right in front of me?
Am I seeing what truly is with open eyes for the first time?

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HATE

I

... Joshua ALex Goben :)

so incredibly much!

Tell me Why?

Why when everything seems to be going right, when I am really happy, things just have to do a complete 180. WHY?! I just don't understand it, what am I supposed to do? Sometimes I just want to pack my things and run away, but what would that really solve? Nothing, I would just be at some random place alone. Maybe that would be better though, maybe being away from everyone and everything would be better. I feel like that's what I need just a mini "vacation", just go somewhere and relax, but not have access to my phone or the internet and just be away from everything. Take some time to gain some perspective on my life. Maybe this is what I really need. To bad I have responsibilities and I am not just going to bail out on them, so it looks like I'm stuck here just wishing I could get out.



Isn't it funny how a smile can hide so much.